Saturday, September 26, 2009

Focus

I had such good intentions of blogging through this journey of cancer treatment. For me, though, I found that I needed to focus on beating this--and that took most of my energy. I know that I will be "un-packing" the many lessons God has taught me along the way for many years to come. I hope to share them in the days to come.

Since I last posted, I have completed 5 months of chemotherapy, had a lumpectomy to remove my tumor, and am halfway through 6 weeks of radiation. Overall, I have done really well through most of it, keeping a pretty normal schedule. God has been so faithful through it all, bringing a peace and strengthening my support system. Having clear lymph nodes and other good news along the way has certainly been an answer to prayer.

As I look to completing treatment, my biggest issue is trying to prepare myself not to live in fear. I do not want to worry about whether or not my cancer will come back. I want to live in the love of Christ, above the fear that Satan wants to use to keep me distracted. So I guess I will be shifting my focus from surviving to LIVING!

23 comments:

Mocha with Linda said...

Kelly!

What a smile it gave me to see your blog in my reader with an entry! And to hear you have clear lymph nodes and are halfway through the radiation. Praise God that there seems to be a light at the end of this tunnel!

I totally get where you are coming from about the fear - that is so common with cancer survivors. Loved your last sentence. Living, not surviving! I know God will use you and your journey to bless others.

Hugs to you.

Melissa @ Breath of Life said...

So glad to find out how you're doing! Praying for you...

Lisa writes... said...

So glad to "see" you in my reader! Thanks for the update. May the Lord continue to show Himself strong and faithful!

Deidre said...

Yay! An update!

I continue to pray for you. I know the Lord has taught you many things during this journey. I'm looking forward to hearing about it all.

Katrina @ Callapidder Days said...

So great to read an update! You continue to be an inspiration, Kelly -- especially with your desire to live in, through, and for Christ. I'm so glad that you've gotten good reports, and I look forward to reading the life lessons you share.

Linda said...

Kelly,I am so glad to see you back and to hear that you are doing well. I will continue to pray for you.
Blessings,
Linda

Connie said...

I'm rather new to blogging. I've been checking from time to time and I am glad you are blogging again. So glad to hear you are doing well. Clear lymph nodes are something to celebrate! Take care and keep looking up. God is so good.

Elise said...

Oh, it's so good to see you back here, and to hear that you are doing well! I've checked in so often, and always left a prayer behind as I touched the screen.

May He continue to gird you with His peace and strength, my friend. How is your family doing?

xo

Natalie said...

Your strength in HIM is so evident. May you continually seek the everlasting peace that can only come from Him.

PS- I use a Canon XSi. :)

Hen Jen said...

oh what a nice surprise to click over and see an update! I am praying for you.

The Lord bless and keep you, and make His face to shine upon you.

Jenny in Ca

Cyndi said...

Kelly, how wonderful to see a post from you. Please know that I am lifting you up in prayer, and I personally can't wait to read what God has been teaching you. You are a dear sister. ((hug))

Tamara said...

I was so happy to see you posting again ! I have never written to you before, but please know that I've so enjoyed your writing and sharing and inspiring...and you are being prayed for often..

God never did say that He was the great 'I WAS" but the great " I AM " and He's still working miracles today !

I trust and believe that He's going to show you this and build your faith and strength in Him in the process...

Fear can't flourish where Faith flows....:)

Kim said...

So good to hear from you! I have been praying for you and will continue to do so. Hopefully we can see eachother on our next Union visit.

I'm so thankful things are going so well.

Susie said...

So glad to hear this update Kelly. I have stopped by from time to time praying, and wondering how you have been. I truly can't wait to hear all that God has taught you through this trial. I could use some wonderful wisdom:) Hugs!

Kristi said...

So glad to hear you're almost on the other side of it. I've checked on you frequently here....and prayed for you as the spirit led.

God is good even in the midst of trials.

Kristi in Texas

Wendy said...

So good to hear from you, Kelly!
You have been in my prayers.

Binoy said...

HAI KELLY
IT WAS ACCEDENTAL THAT I SAW YOUR BLOG
VERY INTRESTING AND INSPIRING
MAY GOD HELP YOU AND SUPPORT YOU
WITH REGARDS
FR BINOY FROM GIBRLATAR

Dionna said...

I discovered your blog today and see that you have not posted in awhile. I'm hoping with all of my heart that you are doing well. It would be great to hear an update.

Jeff Jones said...

Stumbled on your blog. Just wanted to let you know that I prayed for you & hope you continue to see the hand of our God in all your struggles. God bless.

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Lisa @ The Preacher's Wife said...

Hey Kelly,

Just popped over to check in with you..it's been a long time. I pray all is well.

Much love,

Lisa

Elise @A Path Made Straight said...

And it's been another 7 months, but who's counting? ;) Thinking about you today, hoping and praying all is well...

Love to you!